I admit, most part in NCSU are ugly.
The library is awkward standing there without a purpose, the west part seems like a place haunted by ghosts.
If you live in the east part, the welch, the honors village, I mean somewher e near the pullen part, everything is beautiful.
I think I spend my most artistic year in NCSU. I did films, I cross over the train track in the fall, I spend my time in the part, I paint, I draw, I even want to start a band. Everything worked smoothly.
And I was so comfortable that I came out and truly became truthful to myself for a while.
However, now, I did not come out, I did not do music, I abandoned my film camera and every single interests.
Those are the thing UNC never allowing me to do.
I guess it’s not only because I major in math and science, but also unc just does not have those senses for me to develop what I love
SO I moaned
A lot of people say UNC is da best, I admit, but I selfishly wish I could have more.
I don’t know why I said so BS, but seriously, I have to admit my feelings, I can’t pretend that I hold grudge against UNC because of those.
REALLY REALLY REALLY HOLD ON TO MY DREAM AND DO WELL
I know I am kind of upset because everything happen in a way that I ‘ve never expected.
And I could not resist my upsetting emotion right now.
Whatever, travel with whoever you want. Whatever!!
Ellie’s gone, Chvrches right passed NC and went straight back Europe. Flume decided to shout to South American and no one I love still on tour in USA.
It’s finally week, I have no choice but just stay here and study.
You know, sometimes, I feel like school really made me miss something, but most are minor things. At least, it won’t let me miss my life
is that they made me so vulnerable to be exposed to strangers and I am not comfortable with that shit
I know a lot of poeple do, but it’s not my thing which means I could never be a star so i can keep my head down and really focus on my study.
i do feel like i hv a messed up mind right now.
BYE, GOOD NIGHT